Monday, April 5, 2010

Missing my baby boy

I have not been to see Jacob since Saturday. His daddy and grandma have been there but I miss him more than anything. I have been having stomach issues and have been staying away just to be safe. He has more than enough to deal with right now.

However, I really am beginning to think its not viral. I have not felt right since the c-section. I had a tubal as well and wonder if that has anything to do with it. The pumping milk is draining me as well but I really want him to have the breast milk. I just feel like my body hates me right now. I am going to call the midwives again and see what they think. I don't want to stay away from my baby boy if I don't have to. I have been crying everyday. I just miss him so much.

Aidan and Andy are also leaving tomorrow. I can't wait until the day when our family can all be under one roof.

On a positive note...

Jacob is continuing to do so well. He is off all heart meds. His is doing well with weening off of the vent. He is still tolerating the breastmilk. So proud.


  1. You all are in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you get to see Jacob soon and the tummy problems are not viral. I know it must be hard not to be there every day. God Bless.

  2. Kathy.. I remember the days of leaving Ruthie at the hospital. It was so hard. It felt so wrong. YOU ARE AN AMAZING MOM! You are doing everything within your power to keep your little one healthy. Remember to drink TONS of water! When in doubt drink water!! It made a HUGE difference on me! Also, remember to sit down as much as possible. You are recovering just as much as Jacob is recovering. He needs rest and you need to rest. I hope your stomach issue goes away quickly. Until then, keep praying, keep looking at pictures, and keep strong. You are vital to your son's health, so stay as healthy as possible! REST! BIG BIG HEART HUGS!!!!
    Prayers constantly!

  3. I hope you start feeling better soon.

    Jacob is adorable and I'm so glad to hear he is doing well! I hope you get to see him very soon!

    Thinking of you!